Why I Write
Ah, food for thought. I don’t do too much of these posts and I’m sure even less people read them, but sometimes you just have to vent or talk about something, ne?
So I was traversing the Asian entertainment blogosphere when I happened onto a post from someone who had been dormant for a month and a half. They talked about life and realistic goal settings and all that good stuff. One thing that I found rather interesting is that they tried to do several articles…a day? a week?…not because they were passionate about something and wanted to gush or rant, but because they wanted to drive up their site stats.
Reading that got me thinking. Why would you do that? There’s nothing wrong with that technically. You want to drive traffic to your site. Great. In Google, content is king. The more content you have (read good content, I suppose…or rather relative…or…yeah, stupid search engines) is good. Google penalizes static websites. They get lower search rankings. Dynamic websites with fresh content get the higher rankings. I guess to show that they are still relevant and updated. Needless to say, if you’re passionate about your website and what you’re doing, there’s nothing wrong with that…but blogging for ranking’s sake? I don’t know. Not my cup of tea nor my area of expertise.
So this leads me to the existential (not really) question. Why do I write? Or maybe I should just change that to why do I blog? Nah, I’ll leave it as why do I write. Because I have to. Saying that might not make sense, but it’s really how I feel. Whether it’s my poetry or fiction or my recaps and reviews and music recommendations, I have to write them. For me, writing is an outlet. A way to share the things I love, to express my opinion on what I like or don’t like.
Asian Addicts Anonymous didn’t spring up from a love of writing and Asian dramas, honestly. It really didn’t. I work for a literary website. We’ve been agonizing over platforms for years and have been seriously considering moving our website over to the ever popular WordPress. Thus, I created Asian Addicts Anonymous to learn about said blogging platform. I figured if I had to learn about something for work, I might as well learn it while doing something I, myself, was interested in. It just so happened that my boss wanted me to start learning this during my initial Asian drama fervor… That’s actually how my blogging in general started. I minored in Computer Information Systems (sounds fancy, but it really isn’t) and one class had us do a blog (we got a free Typepad account). I started with blogging assignments and that transitioned into blogging about what I wanted.
So I started Asian Addicts Anonymous, started learning WordPress without a plan or goal in site and no idea what I was really going to continue on with and in doing this, I realized that I really wanted to share my love for all things Asian entertainment related with others. I wanted community and people who actually knew and understood what I was talking about (I could not, sadly, turn any of my family members on to Asian dramas and music) and could gush or rant with me. Thus we have my first stumbling posts. My impressions and thoughts on certain dramas as a whole and certain episodes which slowly evolved to me recapping. Still not sure how or why that happened, but once I started, I couldn’t stop. I got to one point where I really earnestly tried blogging at least once a day as I felt guilty if I didn’t. Not sure why or to whom (especially when readership was very low), but I did.
Getting traffic is always nice, but I don’t write for that. This is why I’ll never make it as a commercial writer or freelance writer. That and I suck at nonfiction, i.e. articles. I write about what I want and when I want. I don’t really care 100% if it’s not a drama or group that people aren’t all that interested in. I like it, so I write about it (okay admittedly in the hopes of snagging a few people who might find it interesting, too, but it’s not the be all end all reason). Of course, there are times when just trying to keep up and to continue writing is a chore where it is more labor than love, but there are always times where things you love aren’t as fun as they could be. You know…if I really wanted to drive traffic to my site, I would really concentrate on the highly popular kdramas as they really get people coming in, but the thing is with that…they are sooooo overdone that I don’t see the point in adding more to an already overpopulated blogosphere, thus, it’s another reason I do more jdramas than kdramas or focus on kdramas that a lot of bloggers aren’t necessarily already covering (weekend and daily…which have way too many episodes).
So…why continue when writing can be a chore? Because I have to. Meaning, that I haven’t fallen out of love with it yet. Sure, it can be tiring and there are times I don’t want to and even times, which I’m sure AAA readers have noticed, that I’ve completely half-assed things and didn’t put as much effort in as I could have, but I still have a love and a need to share, rant, and gush for the most part. When that desire is completely gone, then so is the reason to keep the site active and running. But for now I still find myself watching dramas or movies and listening to music and feeling the itch to talk about them with someone. Admittedly, a lot of my series this year kind of turned sour on me and it really became a loathsome chore, but at certain points, I really did love those dramas and just had to rave about them, which eventually turned to slightly bitter rants (I’m looking at you Crazy Love).
I have tons of notebooks. I have tons of writing scattered on loose-leaf notebook paper. You really don’t want to see the entire collection of my writing. I think my blog is just as bad as my own personal writing. There’s already over 1,000 posts and I think I’m actually only 700 away from 2,000. That’s not bad for almost 4 years, is it? That almost averages one post a day. I still have lots of unfinished dramas to go. I have gotten worse at time management and getting things done like I always hope to, but life happens and people aren’t perfect. I’ll get where I want to be eventually for this site.
I shall leave you with a brief two paragraphs I wrote who knows when because I stopped dating most of the crap I write as I feel they still describe my writing habits.
It starts with a word, a phrase, a reverberation. Something echoing, screaming, desperate to get out.
It is a refrain unwritten. A song to be sung. And so I write, a medium for words I do not know, but are desperate to escape me.
I blog because I need to let my thoughts about dramas escape me—even if I’m only recapping and not reviewing. I blog because I want to share the dramas I find interesting with others in hopes they might find homes in other people’s drama lists and hearts.
Not that you’re interested, but you can see my evolution of blogging:
http://cnsspeak.blogspot.com/ [no longer updated at all, has all my posts from when I had to blog as an assignment]
http://nicileighyukari.wordpress.com/ [updated now only sporadically]